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[27 Sep 2007|12:41pm] |
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ok well.....its not the f-350 which im so happy about...instead he will be home soon with a new nissan titan 4x4...OMG SWEET!
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(Fallen souls we shine so bright)
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| bummer |
[28 Aug 2007|09:40am] |
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Heath found out yesterday he might have to go to denver for work for a week. This morning he's on his way home to pack his things and leave until sometimes this weekend. I HATE HIS JOB! both of them cause they take him away from me way to much. He said last night that I'm not supposed to worry about things that its his job to worry. He's insane! Oh well though I guess at least I have a car now and don't have to worry about getting to work while he's gone. Gas in the car is another issue....i have lil over half a tank to last me until friday when i get paid. booo!
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(Fallen souls we shine so bright)
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| love it! |
[17 Aug 2007|11:55am] |
She’s going out to forget they were together
All that time he was taking her for granted
She wants to see if there’s more
than he gave she’s looking for
He calls her up
He’s trippin on the phone now
He doesn’t want her out there
And alone now
He knows she’s movin it
Knows she’s using it
Now he’s losing it
She don’t care
Everybody put up your hands
Say I don’t wanna be in love
I don’t wanna be in love
to the beat now
If you’ve got nothing left
Say I don’t wanna be in love
I don’t wanna be in love
Back it up now
You’ve got a reason to live
Say I don’t wanna be in love
I don’t wanna be in love
Feelin' good now
Don’t be afraid to get down
Say I don’t wanna be in love
I don’t wanna be in love
He was always giving her attention
Looking hard to find the things she mentioned
He was dedicated
But most suckers hate it
That girl was fine
But she didn’t appreciate him
She calls him up
She’s tripping on the phone now
He had to get up
And he ain’t comin home now
He’s tryin to forget her
That’s how we come with him
When he first met her
When they first got together
Everybody put up your hands
Say I don’t wanna be in love
I don’t wanna be in love
to the beat now
If you got nothing left
Say I don’t wanna be in love
I don’t wanna be in love
Back it up now
You got a reason to live
Say I don’t wanna be in love
I don’t wanna be in love
Feelin' good now
Don’t be afraid to get down
Say I don’t wanna be in love
I don’t wanna be in love
To the beat (x3)
You got nothing to lose
Don’t be afraid to get down
We break up
It’s something that we do now
Everyone has got to do it sometime
It’s okay, let it go
Get out there and find someone
It’s too late to be trippin' on the phone here
Get off the wire
You know everything is good here
Stop what you’re doin'
You don’t wanna ruin
The chance that you got to
find a new one
Everybody put up your hands
Say I don’t wanna be in love
I don’t wanna be in love
to the beat now
If you got nothing left
Say I don’t wanna be in love
I don’t wanna be alone
Back it up now
You got a reason to live
Say I don’t wanna be in love
I don’t wanna be in love
Feelin' good now
Don’t be afraid to get down
Say I don’t wanna be in love
I don’t wanna be in love
Now you know what to do, so come on feelin' good
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(Fallen souls we shine so bright)
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| its funny |
[18 Jul 2007|02:04pm] |
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how people say actions speak louder then words.....until it comes a time when thats whats going on and the words just ring in your ears......is it true? Is that a real statement....Do actions speak louder then words???? An if so will the words every go away...
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(Fallen souls we shine so bright)
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| the ringtone on his phone |
[13 Jul 2007|03:27pm] |
so a couple days ago he plays this song he had recorded on his phone cause he said it reminded him of me. I don't really like the song, but i guess its cute it plays everytime his phone rings. His ringtone on my phone is umbrella...i think mines better.
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(Fallen souls we shine so bright)
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| another day...... |
[12 Jul 2007|11:21am] |
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Heath got way busy at work around 6 so I had to wait until almost 8 for him to pick me up from work. I never care though cause I work nextdoor to a bar and I just go over and have a few beers and wait for him. Last night this guy marvin that I know at the bar bought me a few beers and a shot so by the time he picked my up I was laughin my ass off drunk. We went to the store and got some beer and laundry soap. Then to taco bell to grab dinner. The plan was to go home eat and take some beers down stairs and relax in the hot tub, but by the time we got home it was9 and we were to tired. After we ate I turned on harry potter (he hates it) well he just go on his phone and then I got on my phone to michelle and I went outside for a fast bowl and a cig. Then i just walked around the house talking to michelle for awhile and he just sat on the phone with andrew its funny everytime he's on the phone with a guy from work he says "bro" so much. So anyways then we went to sleep and he kept asking me if I was ok and If i was happy. So i had to break down and tell him sorry for ever letting him think he makes me anything less then happy. Then we started talking about what were going to do with the house and how were going to decorate it. He says that will be my job since I love shopping so much, besides we go to home stores and look at stuff all the time, but now we have a whole house to put it in. An I have been saying I want a cat for christmas for awhile now and he said only if its a cool cat like a bangle which shit I don't care he's buying it. Now he says we should get 2 so they can play...who knows hes crazy I just want to go adopt a kitten cause thats the right thing to do. Oh well though he seems to like the idea of spending $800 on a cat let alone 2. I think thats a waste so money. I hope we got home early enough to actually relax I hate going home straight to sleep then beck to work.
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(Fallen souls we shine so bright)
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| i haven't eatin in 3days...... |
[11 Jul 2007|12:22pm] |
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So things this past week have not been good and its been by far the bigest test we have ever had in our relationship. He came home last tuesday and on wednesday morning I woke up early with cramps so I got up and went on the porch for a bowl and a cig. Well on the way for some reason I got the urge to look at his phone which I had never done before....and sure as fucking hell what do I find, but a bunch of text from his ex casandra about how much she misses him, loves him, wants to make love to him and other shit. So i check what he was saying to her and there was nothing in there really just bland yup and ok's. So this weekend he worked atleast 15hours both days and she was still doing it cause I would grab his phone when he wasn't looking and check....telling him he needs to choose between us and shit and how she can't stand the thought of him with another women. All I could think was "new flash bitch we have been togther for 7 months" So anyways he knew something was wrong cause were both very affectionate and are glued to eachother constantly and I would sit on the otherside of the couch or flinch when he would try to kiss me. So 2 nights ago we were laying in bed and I finally was like look I saw the texts in your phone and she has pictures of him all over her myspace like he's still her boyfriend. Anyways we talked about it and he said to just ignore it that shes justtrying to mess with me and that she knows all about us because his little 14yo sister still talks to her on myspace.....and then last night during dinner (since I'm still not eating) I went for a walk and called michelle and got some advice....well went we went to bed last night I started asking him about what if we broke up and what would happen with our house and such.......well this morning he called me just to tell me not to worry about her anymore that she wont be bothering us because he called her and told her to stop. He's not getting back with her and told her also not to talk to his little sister anymore. Soooooo I'm very happy the last thing I wanted to do was break up with him over her and me not being able to handle her harrassment. Thank goodness she lives in new mexico or this would have been much worse. Anyways bekki deleted her for me so I can't go peak on her page anymore cause I figure its better that way...and no matter how much I want to I'm not going to sneak on his phone anymore. I'm looking forward to our trip to cali this weekend. I've gotten so used to driving out there once a month its fun. Also I can't wait to move into our new house. When we went on our first date I never ever thought that 7months down the line we would have a house togther who fucking new.
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(1 Wake the ones and rise tonight | Fallen souls we shine so bright)
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| how can you sleep with one...and say i love you to another |
[10 Jul 2007|10:20am] |
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I found a house were going to sign the papers today....moving in 2 weeks from now.....he said that I should never think that there anything in the world more important than me. I still feel like shit.....im still very sad.....I've been driving my car to work lately even though im not allowed to yet....i still love my car and only do it when i have to cause I dont want to get in trouble....and until i actually have my license (in august) its still heath car, but oh well i'm the only one driving it.
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(Fallen souls we shine so bright)
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[05 Jul 2007|12:57pm] |
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so he came home tuesday night and yesterday was a good day we spent the whole day togther shopping and drinking....although i should stop being so nosy......and he should stop talking to his ex...even if he's just trying to be nice he should stop....
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(Fallen souls we shine so bright)
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| present |
[29 Jun 2007|04:48pm] |
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he bought me a mood ring....as like a warning system....the ring doesn't seem to be working.....but i still love it. Also he found out today he has to be on the base in cali by 9am tomorrow morning...until tuesday....I am very sad....I might call in sick monday!!! The crazy lady in the office has been hacking her brains out so i'll just say I cought her cold.....hahahahaha LOVE IT!
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(Fallen souls we shine so bright)
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| update....... |
[29 Jun 2007|08:24am] |
ok so we went camping at the lake this weekend. We planned it so saturday would be for just the 2 of us and then on sunday we had friends come out with us. So saturday on the way there we were listening to music and he started dancing in his seat and put is hat side way and told me that sometimes he just needs to get crunk it was fucking funny later we were out on the jetskis togther for hours. I got so tan its crazy. Once we went back to camp i was so red and tired we got in the truck and put a towel over the front window and turned on the ac full blast and watched a movie...i was out cold 5 minutes into the movie it was a much needed nap. Then he bbqed dinner and we just say infront of the fire and talked all night. We talked about alot of things...one thing he brought up was the possiblity of us getting married....so yeah I have no idea. Then the next morning we drove into boulder city and had breakfast at a cute lil place. Then everyone came out some people from his work and bri and joey came out to. Everyone rode it was a un day.
So this week has been pretty normal heath's lil brother jacob has come to stay with us for the summer and hes a good kid its nice having him around. He calls me sally....im not sure why. Wednesday we took him to the movies. Last night we took him bowling. I saw john mason at the bowling alley I hadn't seen him in a long time it was odd. So we had alot of fun bowling....i got drunk and heath got pretty tipsy. About 20min before we left me and heath started going back and forth about what was going to happen when we got home.....he just kept saying sleep sleep....and i kept saying nope sex i'm drunk and i get what i fucking want...we went on like that until we got home...once in bed i held him down and we were laughing so hard.....but i did get what I wanted.....and I also loved taking control....i think I'll just hold him down and take what i want more often hahaha. This morning we were laughing abuot it to...i told him it was so much fun that i'm going to do it again tonight he just smiled. I have some pix from camping i'll post em laters.
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(Fallen souls we shine so bright)
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| something to try..... |
[27 Jun 2007|10:12am] |
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so i was laying on the couch with heath last night reading cosmo mag.....and i read this thing were a girl wrote in about how she was with a guy that had been in serious relationships before and had been in love, but he was her first love.....and she was upset by that. well what cosmo said was that guys learn from every relationship and look for better everytime and that she shouldnt worry about who he loved in the past because she was the one he loved now and that its more important to worry about the present then to dwell on the past that you can't change. I'm going to try my hardest to not dwell on his past and live in the now. Also moving might have been moved back to feb of 08 because of some lease problems with our apartment.....but were trying to work it out if we can.
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(1 Wake the ones and rise tonight | Fallen souls we shine so bright)
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| this must be a taste of heaven...... |
[21 Jun 2007|03:51pm] |
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So last night I got home before him (my poor baby working 15 hour days all week so we can go camping this weekend) So when I got home I cooked dinner and showered and dinner was ready just in time for when he got home. I never thought I would be happy just working and going home making dinner and spending the night at home watching t.v., but theres nothing else I would rather do at this point. Tonight I'll be home before him too so I'm making chicken and mashed potatos w/gravy. Last night he told me I'm the most important thing in the world to him........i love him more then words can express....simply saying I love you just doesn't even seem to do it.
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(Fallen souls we shine so bright)
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